A Wonderful Wednesday For Me...

Ya! It was just happened on last wednesday.
What was happened on last wednesday? The day was the next day of my exam result came out and I'd got the result on this day.

Normally I will feel scare and worry even the body shivering before I get my result previously. But don't know why, I did not scare and worry about. I was just kept it as usual and lined up to take the result. Plus, I felt was so happy unconsciously when I woke up in the morning. Is that a sign?Is that a prediction telling me, I would not fail the exam?!

Finally my turn after a few minutes. I signed my name and the officer gave me the result paper.
Wah! I was shocked there. IMPOSSIBLE
So UNBELIEVABLE ! In semester 2, I dreamt in the class and I did not listen to lecturer, I could get B- for Fundamental of Management and B+ for Macroeconomic, Principles of Marketing and Financial Accounting 2 respectively. ^^

Although I got no A on this semester examination, but my GPA still stayed in 3.0 and above. ^_^v
I'm feel this result is ok/comfortable for me, because I dreamt in the class and I didn't do revision at home. Plus something happened on me in semester 2.

But, my result was already regressive if compared to my semester 1 examination.

What did I get on semester 1 examination? I got A for Cost Accounting and Financial Accounting 1 respectively, got B+ for Microeconomic and Introduction to Business respectively, then got C+ for Malaysian Studies and Business Communication with GPA 3.20. ^^ YEAH!!!

Is it I'm clever?
NOPE! I'm not the clever girl and I'm not the type of hardworking. Just last minute and just by luck.
I think I should do prepare before the exam on this semester.
I just study 2 subjects on this short semester.
I hope I can score As on semester 3. I would like to make my exam result becomes beautiful.

BUT...BUt...But...but...
the Business Mathematics and the Moral studies are making me so headache.
Haiz~~~ sigh!
I NEED HELP... Does one willing to help me? OR just be more hardworking by myself?

阴影

刚才和某某人在网上聊天时，我才知道原来不只是我曾经遭受过，还有其他人曾经遭受过。
遭受什么？当然不是一件好事呢！是被人非礼呢！

回想当年，当时我才小学五年级。
那时阿翠和kenny还在拍拖的，阿翠遗失了一架手提电话而到金河广场去购买一架新的。于是，他们俩带我去金河广场逛一逛。

当他们俩正在购选时，突然有个不懂是印度还是马来人出现在我后面。当时我已经觉得这人有点问题，我一只避开他，走来走去。他总是我走到哪里，他都跟到哪里。他又假假的看电话。
最后，我的屁股被他摸了一下。 T_T....
当时，我真的很害怕。我很想告诉阿翠和kenny,可是我又没有那个胆子。而且想哭又不敢哭，我只好忍着。 我第一次到金河广场去就。。。。　><"

那一天，我觉得我很无助。那一天晚上，我还在二舅舅家吃晚饭，没有的回家去。吃过晚饭以后，我好想告诉妈妈，可是我怕没有面子，我始终都没有告诉过妈妈。
晚上睡觉时，我哭了出来。但是，哭了又怎么样，始终还是被人非礼了。

自从这次以后，每当我去金河广场时，那些画面就会浮现在我的脑海。
每当我逛金河广场时，我心里一定会很害怕，很没有安全感。我不能让我自己停顿在那些小档口，我一定要走来走去，因为我真的好怕。可以不要去的话，我真的选择不去这个鬼地方。

几年后，应该是我中二的时候，我和姐姐到夜市集去买东西。
这一次我都不知该怎么说好呢！几乎也被人非礼。
突然身边很多人，当然是挤来挤去的。突然有个毛手想从前面来想要摸我，还好这一次我一直够力用手挡着，不然就。。。
我当时真的很害怕，我只顾着望着下面防卫，忘了看那人是什么的样子，可是我知道那色狼是印度人。

过后，我告诉了姐姐，我姐姐问我是不是多人而不是故意，是不小心的。之后，我就没有跟我姐姐争论。心里想不是故意？不是故意，当我在防卫时，那人的手那么大力干嘛？摆明是有心的啦！
当时我的眼泪在囊来囊去，我很想哭，可是环境是我不能哭，因为我身在人来人往之处，我的心很痛苦。

所以现在每当我走夜市集时，比较多人来人往之处，我一定会停在一旁，顺便歇一会儿。等那些人过了以后，在继续地走。

在几个月前，我跟佳恩出去以后，我回到轻快铁车站后，突然有个死马来佬走过来要抱着我。
妈的。还好我闪得快。不然，我就。。。。
如果他真的是扑过来，我一定会一拳给他死。
只是穿稍微低胸的衣服就遇到这些事，那么以后我不用穿起他stlye的咯！

这是为什么现在我独自一人大轻快铁上学只穿那几件衣服，因为我觉得那几件衣服能给到我安全感，不容易使我遭受这种事情。我不敢穿其他款式的衣服了。
我真的很恐惧。

为什么一次又一次的让我遭遇到这些事？被人非礼真的很难受。
我相信每一个女子曾经被人非礼过，心里总是会很难受，一定会有阴影。

真不明白，为什么那些人要这样对待我们这些女子哦？
女子被人非礼以后，那种在心理的痛苦，很辛苦、好难受。那种痛真的是难以形容，真的是痛不欲生的。

Fearness

Fear, Fear and fear the business mathematics recently. It's so fearness.
This subject is what they call additional mathematics in secondary school. It's a difficult subject.

When I started to learn it, still ok. I could understand it and I did the calcualtion and I got the answer too.

But the business math is more difficultly from now. I calculated it, I couldn't get the answer and then I don't understood what does the question talking about. I don't know what the question wants. I don't know what formula should I use.

I don't dare to do the mathematics again. ><
I don't dare ask people. T_T
I scare it. I scare it. T^T
I got no confident on the business mathematics examination. T_T
I'm so useless...useless...useless...the mind so stupid. ><
STRESS... STRESS... STRESS

I'm so STUPID!!!!!!!!

慈善宴会 17-04-2010

上个星期六，爸爸带我到加影得喜来登酒家出席了一个慈善晚会。
原本我是不想跟随爸爸一同出席的，可是眼见他一人出席，我只好陪着他。
这是我姑姐和姑丈买了几桌的位子，只是要凑够人数出席而已。

这些宴会对我而言，只是那些有钱人要面子的地方。
他们要面子是他们的事，重要是我有美味可口的食物作为我的晚餐。^^

我刚到达时，我眼见和多那些议员、拿督、以及某某大人物在握手；拍照。
我和爸爸先上楼。进入大门口时有大人物啊！要给个微笑然后我握手。觉得自己已经进入上流社会使得。哈哈！可是这种场面，使得我自己表情和心情有点不自在，而且还有点僵硬呢！

一段时间以后，姑姐和姑丈到了。
他们这里打招呼，那里打招呼。宴会都还没开始，整班姑丈的师兄弟就开始喝酒了，整班酒鬼。
一直要我喝，我一直坚持说不要。宴会开始了不久以后就一直倒酒给我。

我一面吃东西，一面听大人物演讲。
哇！他们的华语，真的是不能听的，简直是听不入耳，有点冲动想叫他们收声。某些大人物首华文教育的就大有不同，那些才是华语嘛！

过后拍卖正式开始。这是没有注意些什么了，吃东西重要。
一面吃东西，一面给人灌酒。好惨！幸好我的酒量好，灌我不醉。而且才只是啤酒而已，酒精都不过十巴仙。
开始时，我限量我自己只喝一罐啤酒而已，可是他们一直倒，一直倒，我自己都不知道喝了多少罐。
人人都以为我醉了。其实没有啊！当我喝酒时，我得脸容易红。他们以为我喝醉了，我根本就没有醉，只是血液循环的快了点儿。

拍卖当中，只是耳听见那些数目位好大。。好大。。好多零啊！
然后移交模凝支票仪式开始，有的捐去中华独中、小学、老人院、孤儿院及洗肾中心。

大概十一点十分，宴会结束。我肚子开始有点胀了。糟了！吃了那么多东西，又喝了很多啤酒。原来啤酒会使肚子胀气的。好辛苦啊！ T_T
回到家，觉得头有点晕、身体热热的、全身没有力的，可是我很精神呢！我还撑得住。

Last Thursday

I went to Sushi King for lunch after class on last thursday.
Yeah! Sushi is my favourite foods and I like it so much. So, I dated Connie to have it on the day.

At first, I planned to enjoy the sushi at Times Square, but the member card is limited, so I only fellow my frens to low yat there.

The seats are limited so just left me, sato, cailyn and connie were waiting outside, and rest were having it inside. At last, sato and cailyn couldn't because they waited too long and they decided to other restaurant for their lunch. A few minutes, Connie and me got in the restaurant and started our lunch. Yeah, FINALLY!

The first we did, of cause! Exchanged our Breaking News, haha! Then only tasted and ate the sushi.

Wow! What the breaking news I got from Connie?!
My cousin bro's girlfriend whom same age with me, wanna pregnant. =.=" ...OMG... @@
So young only already think like that.
For my opinion to this action and thinking of the girl, so sucks. Why do I think like that? Because, A young girl or even boy should study well for their future, shouldn't go for life "shortcut".
She can't take care herself, how could she take care the baby? Please la, Don't ruins the baby life. Anyway, it's not my business.

After sushi, we went for Maluri Jusco to buy some gifts for our relatives. Shopping...Shopping...Shopping... during the time, I already felt tired and sleepy but I still wanted to shopping and found some places to go....hehe...I don't wanted back home.

We went to Loke Yew and gave the gifts for the relatives afterward and between my aunt had been giving a lot of vegetables and fishes to cook for dinner. Wow! So GREAT!

Oh! Nothing to do so. Where could we go ?? Oh ya, we decided to see baby, connie's son.
Connie brought me to visit the baby sister's house and see her son.
Yeah! Finally reached there. Hoong Hoong...cute cute... the baby played with me... He moved non-stop, can't stop him...aiya.... This Biao Yi already no more energy..haha...

Originally, planned to swimming, BUT too late. After that we went to Giant and I bought a clothe there...hehehe ^_^v and Connie bought baby accessories there and also bought the same style clothe with me...haha
I felt that I almost fainted. Me already no more energy at all, but I still wanted to go some places don't wanted back home and take for rest.

On the night...I slept at 9.30pm...
I seldom sleep so early, and I satisfied it. ^^

14-04-2010 a Presentation Day

Wow... I did two presentation in a day. What presentation are those? Those are Moral presentation and Business Mathematic presentation.

This time i didn't feel that nervouse or scare on that. Because I've prepared and practiced at home. Plus, Rachel had been set up the power point for us...Thanks Rachel.
Before the day, I discussed with Esther which part should I present and I knew she is not willing to present the last part, so I've choose the 2 punca and the conclusion.

Next day, actually I should reach school library on time, but the **** temporary Puduraya made the LRT station traffic jammed and the 2 U-turn has blocked! SHIT!!! I was late.

A few minutes, I reached masjid jamek station. I walked with fast motion and run. I almost let a taxi collided. I scared with that, and my leg was so painful. But, I didn't care with my leg anymore, I really late. And, I knew they angry me, because I did not reach on time. I just acted as nothing and keep quiet.

Oh! It's time for class. All of moral class students were so scare and nervouse. And all are busy to prepare the power point and practice. Yeah! i felt nothing on the moment. Haha, the most funny was Rachel wanted to go toilet and facing the "toilet bowl praised" and calmed down. hahahahhaha xD

Rachel, Esther, Kit yin and me were in a one group. We were the fourth group to present.
Time passed so fast, it was the time we turned to present.

Yeah! First, ah gor help us set up the power point with his laptop to the projector and then we started. The first was Rachel presented, I saw that she was so nervous. She could not control, but she did it. Next, was Kit yin. Third is Esther, she scared and her body was shaking, and her body was so cold.

Ya. I'm the last member to present it. I didn't scare, just wanna do the best, but I could not.
I felt I presented not so clearly and my leg painful when I was presenting, the post I standed so impolitely infront to Bernard and other people. But, all already passed. I could not do again with the presentation. So let it be.

After the moral class. I've to present my Business Mathematics coursework.
Starting, I got no idea with the coursework presentation. This subject is mathematics, how could do presentation? Those are just calculation and working

Finally the presentation I did it. The lecturer said it's ok. Nothing wrong with my coursework.
I was happy^^, because I did it with myself although I refered to other people coursework. But, I didn't be copy cat leh...

4月十一日 扫墓记

又是一天老早起床又要活动的一天。
可是这天的我不够睡眠，我大概四点多才上床睡觉。因为，又是铁观音使我睡不着。唯有等时间过。半夜三更没有东西坐，只有想象第二天将会有什么事发生。

终于到了清晨，爸爸叫我起床，又给他骂。为什么？又是给姑姐和姑妈害。来什么来啦！每次出现都没有好东西的。不谈他们俩啦！

这天是我放肆的一天，因为，我实在忍无可忍了。他们都没有尊重我们，讲话带有骨，为什么我还要尊敬他们？为何我还要给他们面子？我对着他们说话偏偏就是要挖苦啊！就是对他们没有礼。他们奈我何呀？
开始时，我还以为我哥哥会骂我，没想过我哥哥却没有出声，而且还偷笑呢！哈哈！

我们在“第一站”时，已经有点不爽了。还要跟着我们到五站去。

哇！到了爷爷的坟墓那儿时，已经不理了。做回自己的本分儿。

在这里，我第一次点炮仗呢！我好兴奋。
差不多离开时，我点火。点了火以后，当然有多远就跑多远啦！
哦噢！我的脚。我遗忘了它，我忘记我的脚还没有痊愈。我跑的时候，我脚软；韧带很痛，有点吃不消了。

我哥哥和姐姐看着我跑，姐说好像跑不及似的。讨厌！哥哥却说跑不及不好看，要跌到才好看。 =.=" ...无奈着。。。。
然后我们就去最后一站了。

大概2pm++时分，我们扫墓结束了，就各自回家去。
冤枉！全家人都有的休息，而我却为了moral assignment赶功课。
我足足用了一日半完成2000个字的assignment...厉害，有点佩服自己。

半夜时分时，我知道我的精力有点吃不消，可是我还得呕出2000字的作文。
第二天早晨，第一次那么早就起床继续改正。改下、改下，忘了时间吃早餐，还得洗澡呢！到了车站，还被暂时性的puduraya搞到迟了。
到了学校，啊！！！ 我的format错了，又忘记modified...还好bernard 让我过关，又惊又险的就交了上去。

无题

最近我又在干什么呢？好像很迷茫似的。以前的我什么事情都能迎刃而解，可是现在却不断的逃避事实。
比如说，就这么一件我应该做的事，我都不要去碰；不愿去面对。
怎么会是这样呢？以前那个积极的我到哪儿去了。

话说我以前，当我是小学学生至中二时，我是一个颓废的学生。自从中三认识一个人后，他启发了我，我开始对我的学业之路有了希望，并且领悟到读书是为了什么？我是不是迟了很多？
打从中三开始，我的学业开始进步，虽然每次考试会有跌有上，可是至少比以前好了很多。

上了中四、中五以后，我还是那么努力、殷勤、积极地把我的学业弄好。那么巧，也是我的恩师启发了我。
尤其在中五那一年，我也不晓得是怎么一回事，我的心无杂念，很清醒的。每当上课时，老师教课，我一下子就能够明白；三两下功夫就把功课做完。另外还有其余时间温习功课、娱乐及做家务。

怎么现在我总觉得我时间不够，上课听书时却不能够集中，不晓得我的心到哪儿去了。
另外，以前的时候，不管是什么科目的folio或projek,我自己独自一人都能够征服。可是现在，区区一个assignment我却不能够做。总是下不了手，也不知该如何开始；另外，总是要别人帮忙，这我感觉到我自己很没用。我觉得我在别人眼中是一个一直要人帮忙的家伙，总是厌烦着大家的一个多余的人物。我很讨厌我自己啊！我觉得自己非常没有用，每次总带些麻烦给人，什么事都办不成。我确确实实是一个废物，我连废物都不如呀！

我什么事情都搞得一团糟，没有一件事可以做得好。
没有用的家伙。。。没有用的我。。。。。在这个世上确是多余的。。。。
我是地底泥。。我是烂泥敷不上墙。。。

痛

已经大概是半个月了，我的脚怎么还没有痊愈呢？
昨天又轮到我姐又好像我上次那样，包得像猪蹄一样回来。可是我跟他的问题就不一样，他的似乎比我严重，而且伤的问题也不同。

我再看回我自己的脚，还想“到底我的脚几时才能痊愈呢？我真的不想有后患，不然以后会带来很多的不便。”
就好像刚才，我莲花坐坐在地上折衣服，只是伸一伸脚而已，不小心弄到韧带那个位置，真的痛得要命。
我当时真的好怕、好怕。我担心不能够完完全全的复原。我六月还打算参加马拉松呢！

我这半个月来，我没有跑，没有蹦蹦跳跳的。我乖乖呆在家里，做家务也慢动作，已经尽量地不要弄痛韧带。为什么？为什么还没复原的？

我很害怕！我很害怕！我真的很害怕！

Marathon - Standard Chartered ...27th June

看见我姐参加了两次马拉松，这一次他门的冲劲激起了我，我也想随着他们一起参加马拉松。
这一次的马拉松是由Satandard Charted 举办，可是地点还不知道，日期是27th June。 可是这一次的参与我不晓得是否我有这个机会。 因为凑巧我姐的脚是否能够再跑了，而且我自己本身也不晓得是否有空档的时间让我参加，因为我的学院安排的露营凑巧在五月或六月，希望不是在同一天吧！

我曾经想过，如果是在同一个月，通常露营是在星期五、星期六以及星期日。而马拉松是在星期日举办，我露营回来以后，还有时间去参加呀！如果是在晚上跑的话。之前两次都是晚上开跑，要是这一次也是晚上开跑有多好呢？！
露营回来也能跑，哈哈！